i could go on forever

dear edward cullen,
i still don't get the hype. i don't find you attractive. i admit, you're good looking but when the entire planet go crazy bout you, i can't comprehend that.

dear twilight fans,
just because i dont enjoy watching this movie, that doesnt make me a criminal. cmon, its individual preferences. and people define romantic in a lot of different ways

dear dear shoes,
would you get mad if i get a new pair? its only been a while but u'r already so so so worn out

dear kenshin,
i really don't know what i would become if you materialize in front of me, like transforming into real human *flustered

dear head,
you are moving so surprisingly slowly, it disappoints me. i don't even express myself well right now

dear already rusty vocabulary,
even the brats have higher vocab than you. what's with that?

dear nani,
i really envy your language skill

dear me,
why do you always feel bad after letting out ur anger?

dear brats,
each time i see that you really understand me, improve because of me, enjoy the time you spend with me, accomplish the tasks that i give you, i drive home feeling like i've just won a trophy

dear mak,
why does taking a good care of yourself seem like luxury to you? it really angers me when i see you trying too much to make things go easy for the others at the price of your rest. you deserve better treatment mak. please, say no to us when you need your rest

dear this person,
i don't get why did you have to bring out 'the other three'. i'm not close with them, not planning to get close either but i'm not jealous. i just feel indifferent bout them

dear this person again,
i think i wanna ask you if you're not satisfied with the way i contribute

dear them,
the reason why i don't care about you is i don't trust you and i think you're cunning

dear artistic side,
i'm ecstatic whenever you appear

dear eyes,
do get better

dear me,
keep changing. for good reasons

dear me again,
it's ok, you're not a carbon copy

dear dad,
it's never easy to show my affection to you. it's so natural with mak but i freeze when it's you. i feel awkward. i'm sorry i don't talk a lot to you. i'm sorry i don't give us a chance to grow closer

.i.am.mean.

i'm probably being biased towards you. each time i see you, each time i hear you, i see flaws and the flaws just continue piling up. this, dies down if you tone down a bit and keep a distance

"seeing you is like pulling teeth hearing your voice is like chewing tin foil"

I found a letter

It was from you, the very first batch of my brats. You were infatuated. By me. By me having the same interests with her.


Morita, I still remember that name. And I still remember his character. We were like shy shy teenyboppers expressing how we were so into Morita. I could tell how excited you were, how you wanted to just spend the whole 1 hour talking about anime and specifically Morita but the eyes thwarted that and we didn't really know each other and so you and I just shied away..It was exciting, in an awkward way. You're right, not many of our species would choose to waste the time sharing our infatuation towards fictitiously non-existent dorks. They rather swoon at the thought of some narcissists. I do enjoy those nonsensical stuffs too but I get bored of them easily


I wish I could tell you, the writer of the letter, that I too was astounded with the first impression that you displayed. You spoke out things that I had no courage to blurt it all out. You are quiet yet smart. As I went back home that day, the very first time I talked to you, the thought of you lingered.

Where are you now? Hopefully you found some other anime-freaks to go crazy with.


And I wonder if you still have the same image of me as you did 3 years back. I have changed but am not very different. I'm no longer afraid of differences between people. And I wish you the same too

Burden taken off my chest

Aahh...Its just relieving to know that someone feels the same, share the same view. And its their own feelings, they are so real about it. Makes me relieved to know I was not making things up, not being overly sensitive.

I'm clingy and I'm jealous of...

I hate to use that J word. I really feel like talking bout it with someone. I want to let it out. I've tried but it's never easy. Its so not cool to be like this I know. Its irritating to her I know. Last time, its still acceptable. I was younger. This time makes no sense. I'm a grown up. SOmehow, I keep doing it. Karma. I once neglected her for someone else. Now I have to endure the pain of being in jealous sea

when i'm not in a good mood...

...I just need to look at a guy who is a leftie

I'm cheery again

trust the first plan

i never ask ur opinion. ok i admit, this only shows how insecure i can be sometimes. if i really dont care, i wouldnt get mad in the first place. or is it cuz i was irritated?

I should've done it alone. At peace, at my own pace, my own taste